(This post is being written on August 14, and I already have some MGOC posts scheduled out, so the timing may seem a little off. Sorry.)

I haven’t written anything on MGOC since the beginning of August.

My schedule has been a little weird. I’ve only been in the office one day this month (so far), and I feel like I only do my writing there.

But when I’m at home, or working remotely, it’s not like I don’t have permission to write. I mean, today I have no meetings until 11am; why don’t I do some writing this morning? I know I won’t. I don’t know why I won’t.

It could be because of my Bluetooth keyboard — maybe I’ve become so used to writing on it that when I’m on a normal keyboard I can’t write anymore. (I say “can’t”, but what I mean is “not used to”.) The keyboard has three different pairing modes, though, so I could conceivably pair it to my laptop, or even just use it on my phone from literally anywhere there’s a table for me to prop my phone up on. But as I type this blog entry, even though my Bluetooth keyboard is full-sized, it still feels weird to type on my full-sized laptop keyboard right now and I don’t know why.

It could be because I have other things to do, or to think about. Today I happen to be in Florida — my daughter is moving into her first apartment this week and I’m here to help her with moving, furniture shopping, assembly, and whatever else she needs. But since I’m working from the hotel today — all day — and, like I said, no meetings until 11, why shouldn’t I be writing? I won’t be — I know I won’t — but I certainly could.

Why can’t I give myself permission to write? Why is this so difficult? I know it’s going to get even harder next week when my boss gets back from overseas and I have to be more circumspect at work. I should be using the time I have available. I just… won’t.

Being a writer is so weird sometimes.